Forever Is A Long Time

So, about two weeks ago, I was thinking, "I wish that i was an actress, or a model. That would be SO MUCH FUN" :)And about a week and half ago, a friend in my ward asked if I could help her out with a 3-min. video to get into the BYU Film Program, or School. (not exactly sure which) I thought "Sure, I could help her out with whatever she needs, this'll be a fun, new experience." She then asked me to be the actress in the video! Wow it's crazy how things like that work! :D I don't want to give out details about the storyline, because i may put the video up once she has turned it in in march! :) This morning at about 10am I became an actress! :) It was alot of fun but it so much work! We started out this morning at 9am and wrapped it up at 330pm! For 3minutes of video! So I have to also say that my career was very short-lived. It ended at 330pm as well! Ha!
This is a picture of me and my "love interest" :) Richard (who is also in my ward) while filming a sweet scene together.

Things End.

you never know where you will end up when you begin to fall for someone. and its that falling that the other person will either keep you up, soaring above everybody else because you have that person beside you or will tear you up inside knowing that it started off so good, and it leaves you wondering if falling was even worth it.

relationships end, so we can learn for the next one. or so we can be ready for the next one. you can be hurt from the previous and scared for the next, or happy with the experiences and facing the next with your head up and heart open to anything.

being hurt from the previous and scared for the next is what a lot of us go through. we can be so hurt that we close ourselves off to that one person who will keep us soaring. we will miss our chance at love if we are scared for the next.

being happy with the experiences and facing the next with our head up and heart open will help us learn about ourselves and that other person to see what we like and dislike. we will think more about the happy times then the sad ones. we will eventually find love and know that falling is completely and utterly worth it.

So, I've been at Merry Maids for over a year now and boy do I want to QUIT!! Not happy with management at all...and while I've been looking and inquiring about jobs all over, I've realized how many people I know that do not have jobs and they've been looking for a lot longer then me; so that put things into perspective for me. I am so grateful that I have been blessed with a job and money to pay for the things that I need and a few things that I buy to, ya know, stay warm and alive in this cold weather! :) But I also am grateful for the beautiful mountains and trees that I get to see everyday! I've been meaning to go out and take lots of pictures of these great things but haven't gotten around to it yet. :/ so hopefully next time I can have some new pictures with my post. (:

So....school, homework, essays and buying lots of notebooks, paper, pens, pencils, and BIG erasers might soon be on my agenda! I've recently taken the ACT and thee Assessment tests at UVU to get in in Jan. Hopefully anyway. Taking those tests was a big step and challenge for me. First to actually make it to the testing center before they closed to sign up but it seemed my work was against me; always getting off after they closed. :( And second, while taking those tests all I felt was nervous and like a failure, knowing that I was physically and mentally unprepared to sit there for 4 hours trying to remember things that I barely even studied when I was in high school. :/ Well after getting my scores back for both tests I saw what I already knew. I'm great with English and terrible at multiplying. lol Math, in general actually, hasn't ever been my strongest skill, so it has just made me promise myself to ask questions, get a tutor, study and put myself into a relationship with school since these tests have made me humble and I have faith that once I start He will make weak things strong for me. These pictures here are from last year that I didn't put up anywhere, so here they are! Never before seen photos! haha :D

Dora the Explorer

so I went on a date up to the "Y". :) i took a few pictures and tried to get a nice panorama sweep picture (just realized that i had that feature!!) but it didnt work out too well. too many lights! :) i brought a small backpack to bring stuff and he called me dora the explorer. haha well i felt more like a good girl scout being prepared. and as he is mormon and i'm sure was in boy scouts also i was a little dissapointed that he had not thought to bring anything! i brought three ice filled water bottles, camera, phone, chapstick, gum and some licorice to eat and enjoy when we finally got to our destination. little did i know that the reason the licorice had been on sale was because it was SO OLD!! i opened it up feeling pretty good about myself since he also said he liked red vines, but when he bit into it and took awhile to pull his hand back i knew something had gone terribly wrong. :/ so i took a bite into my favorite pass time and it was so chewy i felt like i was chewing on gum that had been already used and left to dry in the sun. ewwwwwwwwuuuuu.
this picture here was from a view from about halfway up the trail and it was the best picture i took that night :) so go ahead be jealous. (:

Family. I miss them very much and love to go down to visit them when I can. Memorial Day for me is "Triple F Day"-Friends, Family and Fun in the Sun! :) Getting up before the sun, packing towels, water bottles, umbrellas, sunscreen, and cutting fresh fruit. Smiles and laughter are seen everywhere. Best friends are made on the walks to the end of the pier. Sand castles are made and little kids are full of sand, even some of the older kids are full of sand :) Old friends come together to chat about their latest grandchild and relish the family all together. Hot dogs are cooked, and marshmellows are gone before the s'mores can be made! At the end of the day we start to feel the sunburns on our backs and sleep on the way home, but we always have a good day at the oceanside beach on memorial day. a day of friends, family, and fun in the sun. :)

to the end of a new year, and the beginning of a brighter one!

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Halloween!!!

hmmm, well me and sis and roommates celebrated halloween early this year, and went out last night to a party in salt lake. :) fun but extremely tiring!! lol fell asleep in the car on the way home. got home at 3:30, went to sleep and then had to get up early to go to work at 730 and i didnt actually wake up until 850!! and i had to be there at 9! man!! it super sucked i had to call in to work and let them know what happened b4 i had even gotten out of bed!! lol went to work, wanted to get home and fall back asleep but when i got home i was no longer sleepy enough to fall asleep. man it sucked!! so yeah now i really dont feel like going out tonight. halloween was not all that great this year..

the best part of today was when some guys (JASON AND JEFF) that we met up here in our aprtmt complex showed up dressed as the Weasley twins! haha i got a good laugh. but not at them! just at the fact that they really dont look like the twins in real life but with the costumes, the wigs, the fake eyebrows! WOW! they did an amazing job of becoming the characters of a book series that neither of them have even read! i had to get some pics of them too!! so here they are!! :)